Love and cigarettes

My pack is half depleted
I’ve smoked far too many
Sighs a-sorrowing hugs,
A borrowing
As I traverse the shadows.

Gray’s Inn road, Russell Square.
Dead of night
Alone, walking.
Walking.
Rebonded hair, moist eyes.
slacks and slippers.
“do you remember me?”
blank look.
Memory recall-
“do you remember me?”
no answer.

I need replenishment;
Off-licence eludes me.
Call for a loser.
Should I pick up?
Jilted, lost- not enough.
Smoke in my eyes,
Sweet pain
Mingled with acute hurt.
Flakes on floor.
My broken heart.
Bitterness prevails- need her back
If she cant remember;
How could I forget.
No.
no way.

Morally indictable offence,
Tried for treason;
Betrayal of the heart
Was I not betrayed.
No evidence.
What
So
Ever.
Claim without cause.
Prestidigitator

I shall smoke my last cigarette
Whence I cannot kiss again.
2004
draws to a close.
penultimate
cigarette
extinguished on my tongue.